Thoughts On “Holiday Willpower” + Kabocha Spice Latte

Thoughts On “Holiday Willpower” + Kabocha Spice Latte

I know, I know. It’s the season of “pumpkin-spice-this” and “pumpkin-spice-that”…But I’m kind of obsessed with kabocha squash. I mean, have you ever tried them side by side? Sorry pumpkin – my little kabocha friend has you beat, hands down.


Speaking of “pumpkin spice season” – and by that I mean holiday season – how’s everybody feeling? Personally, I’ve spent quite a few holidays in a bit of isolation. Just me, the wifey, maybe a friend, and a huge feast tailored to whatever diet I was refusing to stray from. After several consecutive years of “Living Thanksgivings” the raw food thing had us pretty nutted out. Then there was the fruitarian year where I ate my weight in cauliflower salad. Oh and that time I made everybody go sugar, oil, grain, and flavor-free! What fun! I had such pride over the fact that I was the *only* one taking care of myself. Everyone else would be stuffed into their skinny jeans and suffering from colds and I would be a tiny little glow-ball of health and radiance. Except…health and radiance don’t grow from fear. I was so afraid that one bite of “low-vibration” food would send me into a tailspin of bingeing that I wouldn’t recover from ’til well after the New Year. My restrictions were my safety blanket keeping me warm in the chilly air.


It doesn’t have to be that way.


It doesn’t have to be all or nothing.


This is the first holiday in years that I’ll be spending with family and not preparing my own food. It’s the first time I’ve felt ready. Able to connect and eat without judgement.


You wanna know what keeps me grounded? Knowing how I want to feel. I don’t believe in throwing all my vitality out the window for every Christmas cookie that comes my way. I also don’t believe in saying no to the truly special experience of connecting around a meal. Knowing how I want to feel means “willpower” isn’t something I even need to bother with. I never tell myself something isn’t “allowed” – it’s all allowed, all the time! And with that freedom, I have the space to ask myself if a food choice will leave me feeling nourished. Connected. Alive.


With that, I raise my mug of “so-much-better-than-a-pumpkin-spice-latte” to you and wish you a very happy holiday season!


Kabocha Spice Latte




1 cup organic milk

1/4 cup strong coffee

1 Tbsp cooked kabocha squash

1 Tbsp maple syrup

1.5 tsp vanilla extract

1/2 tsp cinnamon or roasted maca

a dollop of fresh whipped cream

Heat all ingredients (besides the whipped cream) in a small pot to desired temperature. Pour warmed ingredients into a blender and blend until frothy. Pour into a mug and top with whipped cream.






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  • Alissa says:

    I miss the recipes on your old blog. Are you slowly moving them here? You had some really good ones!

    • Rande says:

      Hey Alissa 🙂 Sorry about that, I was just having a hard time having some of that material available anymore as I felt like it didn’t set a healthy example. I’ve moved some of my favorites over with more to come!

  • I am reading this and watching your video in near-tears. I am so happy to hear you say these things. I’ve mentioned this before, but I started following your blog when I was also on this path to becoming a never-gets-sick, glowing-skin, and hopefully-someday-skinny child of all that is pure and clean. And then when I started to see how it was taking over my life, I actually had to stop reading your blog, because it became pretty triggering. :/ And I was bummed about that because I really liked you! So I am just so truly happy to see the peace you’ve found and so truly happy that I can enjoy your blog again. 🙂 I am so excited to read all the new recipes and content! You rule. Women can absolutely do so much more than obsess about their bodies and food. Thank you for being a reminder of that. <3

    • says:

      Ohhh Raechel, thank you so much for saying all that – I took my blog down as soon as I woke up to what a poor example it was setting!

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Rande Moss

Eating Psychology & Mind/Body Wellness Coach. Freedom Chaser. Food Lover. Forest Dweller.
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